More than just running

… it’s how I train myself to be mentally stronger and positive.

I started running less than a year ago. Not really into running marathons, but just simply jogging from point A to point B.

It’s even better running on a cold winter morning, when your body really beg you to just shut down and head to bed. That’s when the mental war really start.

How did it start?

I ran my first marathon with one of my bestie, Steph in 2010. Not sure where she got the idea but she asked me if I would join her for a 5K run organized by Nike. I have never been a fan of running but I thought to myself, what the heck, why not? That run felt like forever. But with much support by Steph, we managed to finish the race, together. She slowed down for me a couple of times during the run. Not only it pushes me to go further but I know even more that she is someone I will not let go. Steph, if you are reading this, just want you to know you are precious :)

A sense of achievement

Not long after the Nike 5K marathon, my grandma passed away and I decided to take a gap year and then left for Australia. It’s hard to be homesick and even harder when you are alone so far away from your family. Have turn to running as a distraction.
When I was away, I could not afford a gym membership and I was seriously gaining weight. I took my very first step out the door that winter morning, and started jogging. It was almost year since the Nike run.
As I run each day, I tried to run a little further than the day before. Before I know it, I am running 10-15K.

When I run, I often take this time to think about things, mostly life.

Many have asked me why I started running, is it to keep fit and lose weight? That’s one of the reason but not the main reason.

To be very honest, I love the sense of accomplishment when I pass the finishing line at the end of the race. Timing is the least of my concern. It feels great to end what you have started, because along the way it might be rocky, lots of uphill climbs, and cramps. Same goes to what life have to offer. I told myself if I could pull through all that, I will be a better and stronger person. When you psych yourself so often, slowly it becomes a natural thing. And this is where I slowly gain more mental strength and becomes a much positive person. Not sure what other people perceive me as, but I know one person that could tell the world how negative of a person I once was. My fiance.

The little voice in you

Don’t matter running short / long distance, there will come to a point where you will start having little voices in you head talking and distracting you. I have tried my very best to ignore all the negative remarks and only take in the ones that benefit me. This voice will usually come when you are feeling dehydrated, tired and warm. The little voice have asked me to quit, and to just give up countless times. In circumstances like this, you have to stand strong, and remind yourself why you signed yourself up at the first place. That is to finish the race that you have started.

What keeps me going

I am at my prime, need to stay in best of shape and health. Then I would have more energy and stamina to take what life throws at me. And that being said, would definitely believe I could achieve more.

My god mother is super awesome. She kicks my butt when I slack and she motivates me all the time and run with me in almost all of the races. She is 51 this year and boy is she fit! Always on the top of the charts. (Kai Ma, if you are reading this, THANK YOU for being such an inspiration to me).

Besides that, I made so many friends through running. They all share this very same passion and they never stop sharing their words of encouragement. This is what keeps me going. And I hope by sharing my experience I could inspire some to start picking up running.

Now that I am back in Malaysia, since May  2012, I started signing up for marathons all around the city. I am surprised to find that are so many organizers out there that organize these marathons.Well, as for my short term goal, I would love to collect 10 medals by the end of 2012. And participate in a half marathon next year.

I sincerely hold on to these words, THE BODY ACHIEVES, WHAT THE MIND BELIEVES. It’s all in the head.

— Michelle


My New Year’s Resolution

It’s a brand new year and yes, time to conveniently forget/misplace your previous year’s resolution. You tell yourself it’s time to jot down a new set of new year’s resolution, and this time stick with it. I know what most of you will have on your top ten things to do. To lose weight.

Hmph, I won’t even bother including it in my 2011 new year resolution. It’s pretty impossible for me to actually eat less (heh, I’m not saying that I eat like a pig either) and lose the weight that I think I will gain from it, because heck, I am living in Malaysia. Festive after festive, there’s always another big occasion. My year (or at least this year according to what i foresee) usually/will goes like this:-

January – New Year’s Day dinner with the family, family going to Penang! I cannot resist all the Penang hawker food and all the Nasi Kandar

February – Chinese New Year! (nom nom real food and junk food, dinner with family, and boyfriend’s family, house visiting and more house visiting)

March -Usual by monthly trip to Thailand

April – My birthday! There will definitely be dinner with family and makan makan session with friends

May – There’s Labour Day. Whenever there’s a public holiday, I will hang out with some friends at a mall or go on a road trip with my family, and then again, eat

June – It’s daddy’s birthday, what more it’s also father’s day. CAKES CAKES CAKES!!

July –  Thailand again and some small lil trips here and there with bestfriends

August – Mom’s birthday, Merdeka Day, Hari Raya (mmm, rendang!) and a whole bunch of  other public holidays

September – Malaysia Day, another road trip and excuse of food hunting

October – Baby’s birthday :) Nice dinner..

November – Deepavali (not nice to visit friend’s place but not eat).. OMG suddenly thought of Indian Kitchen *drools*

December – My family usual trip to Penang. How can one be in Penang and on a diet? And there’s CHRISTMAS DAY! The usual Christmas Eve dinner, Christmas lunch and dinner and.. New Year’s Eve dinner

See, all planned out. Either it’s a festive season or it’s someone’s birthday or a vacation. This year I am clear of what is the top of my list. EXERCISE! That’s right. Instead of eating less and getting all sad and food deprived (warning:may cause depression), I’d rather get my butt up and start working out. To be honest, I have been hitting the gym frequently in 2010, but I will make sure this year will be even better.

Have a sweet & sweaty 2011. Happy New Year :)


I’m glad it’s December. Never in my entire life, I wish for time to fly as fast as I wanted this year to.

They say time will heal, well, is it true? Or is it just a saying? Anyway December is a happy and jolly month. Justin’s birthday, Christmas, turkey and cupcakes. For once, something to look forward to, in 6 months :)

I’m blogging again… like finally

Woah, I cannot believe I am updating my blog again. I never thought I would actually update. Like after how many donkey months?! I also kinda forgot how to log in to my website. That is how freaking long I didn’t blog.

Just a quickie. This year has been a bitch to me. I had a horrible first job, lost my loved one, non-stop going tot he hospital, having friends come and go, not having enough time to myself, not enough sleep…

Enough is enough. I quited my job, and found another. Finally moving on with life, accepting how life works and slowly picking myself up. I also have decided to take a break from here, from all this sadness. Therefore, I applied for a work and travel visa to Australia. I have got everything done and my visa is approved; after so much pain (very painful process) going through the Ministry of Foreign Affairs in Putrajaya just to get my paper work sorted out.

See, I wanted to escape from my daily routine so bad that I actually applied for a visa and will be leaving on 1st March 2011, but then right now at this point in time, I am feeling very heavy hearted.

In the process of picking myself up, I realize that I don’t really need to run away from here to be happy. Because to be poko-poko-blue-bunny honest, I am happy right now. I have been hitting the gym very often, work all my troubles away, been helping mom set up an online boutique which is doing pretty okay( *wink*), been working with Studio 212, meeting clients, developing iPhone apps and design for a month and plus now. Seriously, I am liking what I am doing. Today is my off day. And yes, working with Studio 212 I really get off days off. Unlike my previous company, although it’s my off days, weekends, public holidays or whenever I am on MC, I still have to work from home. Thinking about it makes me sick. Well in order to keep myself super busy, I even signed up for the Nike KL vs SG 5K run and I bought tickets to watch Adam Lambert live in KL.

I guess i shall not dwell on what is gonna happen next. What ever comes, comes. I will make it a point to upload all the pictures that is in my draft box this week.

Will upload again soon :)



Some work and Brussels

argh! screw it. I basically lost my weekend to work! Work work work!!!

Getting sick of it. :( i wonder how ppl make it till retirement age. I just feel like retiring now. like right now!

Just when I have planned my weekend out nicely:

– Sleeping in on a Saturday morning

– Lunch with baby

– Pillow fighting at 1Utama

– Easter dinner with besties, followed by a sleepover


It’s Sunday now and I am working also. @!#%

Please please please, God, please be gentle on me. *sigh*

Anyway, here’s some good ol’ pictures taken at Brussels with baby jas0n and his cousin Phelicia.

michelle chan - blackthorn cider

this is now my official fav


the alcohol kicks in pretty fast.. or it could be also I’m a lousy drinker

jason and his leffe

baby’s fav

Leffe Brune

michelle and jason

michelle and jason :D


jason and phelicia

If you love to chill and just drink your night away, Brussels Beer Cafe is a good choice.

Brussels Beer Cafe

Address: 4-20-G, Block L, Jaya One, 72A Jalan Universiti, Section 13, 46200 PJ

Contact: 03-7954 2000

Opening Hours: 11am – 2am

Here’s some before and after:

jason and his laffe

before – nice and sober

after leffe

after – awefully happy kiddo

p/s: i hate myself for missing out sleep over at MM’s

p/p/s: i really hate it! didn’t manage to go to the Opera with them! argh! :(



I miss blogging so badly.

I have not uploaded a real blog post for ages.

I have not been taking pictures to post up my blog.

I have not been editing pictures for my blog.

I have not write anything.

I have so many backdated entries that I have yet to publish.

…ever since I started working :((


arghh.. *depressed*

This is not good.

I must at least get Michele and Illy’s wedding pictures and details up in the next post.


I feel trapped, very trapped.

I cry secretly everyday.

I don’t have the answer for myself, I really don’t.

I wonder why I ever feel this way?

I’m envious,

Of some who are successful,

Of those who are carefree,

And those who work in Starbucks,

And still be happy.

I don’t need much money, I don’t need much.

I just want to do something that will make my heart sing.

I’m searching for it,

I know it exist,

Right now I’m just lost,

I guess,

Someday I will find it.