I have a perfect family, I have a lot of friends, I have a boyfriend that loves me for who I am, I have graduated, I have a job, I have a holiday that I am looking forward to go, I have 2 graduation trips, I have almost everything that I ever wanted…
but.. I am feeling empty. unhappy. tired.
I guess what I really want is my mummy to be here with me, so I can fill her in on stuff that happenned in tha past 11 years.
I just want to let out :\ really.
why didn’t you wit for me, just for a little while,
I am on my way,
I want to tell you how much I Love You,
Like what I have to say.
I am sorry, mummy,
I know it is too selfish to ask,
but why can’t you wait?
I am down on my knees now crying,
Mummy, please don’t leave.
Why are you leaving me so fast?
Losing you it’s like a nightmare,
A nightmare that wouldn’t end,
Now, I wouldn’t dream, I wouldn’t dare.
I never know what PAIN is like untill I’ve lost you,
I barely survive these lonely nights, without having you by my side.
I am truely sorry for what I have done,
and I promise I’ll never be late,
When we meet,
at the heavenly gate.
What I can do now is just pray, and wait till the day,
we meet again.
**in the sweetest memories of Judy (17th July 1960 – 31st January 1998)
its been almost 9 years now…